Flame to dust, Lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end..
Name: K3nichi N
Hard to grow up,a boy lives in Beijing, China.
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Till yesterday, it has been four years since my fater left us.
I was badly sick, no appetite. I didnt eat anything untill night. Crawled in the bed, i could not help burst into crying.
In the night, I went to the Bon jour, bought two bags of bread, and a piece of sausage.
When i saw the sausage, my eys was full of tears again.
Teethach tortured me when i was a child, in order to cheer me up, my father`s trick was bought me sausage.
If that accident never happened, I would be much happier then now what i am.
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A man bumped into my life, the desire to be his side is too strong to resist.
I am afraid that I am going to fall in love again.
Und, the stupid thing is that I dont even come to him face to face.
Whatever, I decide to try this time.
This world is cold, only a few places you can feel warm.
Life is full of frustrations. Life is a strugle, a singer said so.
I just gradully understand it.
我说从现在开始我要好好的生活，无论遇到什么样的挫折，都要让自己快乐一点。
每每情绪低落的时候，总喜欢看看网上别人写的东西，看着看着就平静下来了。
翻了翻两年前自己写的东西，觉得陌生的很，好像不是自己写过的。可能太过于做作的缘故吧，我想两年前的我应该是个很矫情的家伙。
出国的事情因为资金的问题恐怕要一直放着了，看着舅舅为此付出的努力，一面感动，一面为自己的不上进而愧疚。
像尘说的他自己，仍然陷在一个格子里。我想我也一样，陷在了某一个格子里。
妹妹说，舅舅打算让我去长春工作，他会打通关系。可舅舅给我的电话却是让我努力考研究生。妹妹说其实他是知道你考不上的，到那时候，你只能去长春了。事实上，现在我也会去。
在北京漂了两年，漂够了。
两年前，我那样执着的要留下或许是有理由的，现在，我找不到什么可以推脱，可以蒙混自己的理由了。
大表姐说，北京的饭不好吃啊。他就是这样一个人，永远不会直白的说话。现在他回到徐州，听说当了什么项目包工头。
表哥今天一早就起来跑步去了，回来跟我说，偌大一个操场就他和室友，还有另外一个小老头。中国人都怎么了？
我说，我要睡觉~~~
新的一年来了，希望一切顺利。
Do you see the dancer turning clockwise or anti-clockwise?If clockwise, then you use more of the right side of the brain and vice versa.
Most of us would see the dancer turning anti-clockwise though you can try to focus and change the direction; see if you can do it.
| LEFT BRAIN FUNCTIONS uses logic detail oriented facts rule words and language present and past math and science can comprehend knowing acknowledges order/pattern perception knows object name reality based forms strategies practical safe |
RIGHT BRAIN FUNCTIONS uses feeling "big picture" oriented imagination rules symbols and images present and future philosophy & religion can "get it" (i.e. meaning) believes appreciates spatial perception knows object function fantasy based presents possibilities impetuous risk taking |
